I watched a really cool show that day - "Fireproof". Basically, it was a story revolving a fireman who was going through a divorce with his wife. The fireman's father gave his son a book - it's called the Love Dare. It was a book of 40 dares, one for each day, for one person to do for his / her partner. So, for example, the first day's challenge was for the fireman to not say anything mean the whole day. The second dare was to do something nice for his partner etc.
The point of raising this movie was, at the 20th day - halfway, the fireman felt really tired to doing all these nice things for his wife but his wife did not appreciate and even started to question his motives. His father told him one thing, "The 2oth day is always the hardest. You've stepped too deep into the dare, yet too far to see the end."
I'm disappointed with regards to my students. The self-study programme has started about 2 weeks with 2 more weeks to go. My students are tired, I'm tired of staying back, some are giving me attitude, some are playing monopoly when they're supposed to be studying. I'm pissed, I'm angry, I'm frustrated. I feel like giving up. Why do I care when you don't even want to? By right, since I've called your parents, I have absolved myself of all my responsibility. You want to study, when you want to study is no longer my problem. After all, I'm not your mother.
I know all these justification is a cop out. I know if I give up halfway, I will feel very disgusted with myself in the end. If I give up now, what difference is there between me and 15 year old students? Then God reminded me of the movie. Halfway through is always the hardest. I'm too deep in but too far to see the end. 2 weeks have passed but these are the 2 crucial last weeks. I I think.. I will not give up. The programme will continue. I will continue to stay back. I will not let them give up. Those who hate me can continue doing so. I would rather them hate me and pass than they fail and all I can say to that is "I told you so" at the end of the exams. That's the last thing I want to see.
By the way, this is the movie trailer for those interested. Probably a little mature for you guys since it's about marriage, but oh well, it's a good movie. No harm right?
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